27. Rule 14: Everything can be explained, one way or the other.

 

21/07/2014

 

So, I got tired, and stressed, and to a breaking point.

I felt alone and lost,

And I heard your voice,

Just like I always do,

Just as I always have.

You are the inner strength in everyone.

Although it seems that giving up isn’t strength,

For me, it was the best thing I could have done.

That path was suffering.

I always thought that suffering was something you had to get through to get to happiness,

To get to the place you want to be,

And maybe it is,

It doesn’t matter because there just comes a point where you have to say,

I’m done with this, I’m done with suffering.

You put the suffering behind you,

Accepting, even thanking it for leading you to a place where you can finally be free from it.

But I am also free of a plan, a path, and that’s scary,

But in this moment my faith is stronger than ever and I trust in you.

I trust in myself.

So, I vow to do the things that make me happy,

To see what I find beautiful,

To try not to let fear get to me, or people, or family.

I vow to be as free as I can be.

The only person who can get me down is myself.

I am the ruler of my own heart and mind.

I vow to do my best to not live in the past and move on.

I vow to love my family, the women who have made me,

My mother, my sister, my grandmother and myself.

I make this vow in your name and in my own,

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