22. Rule 9: Wherever you go, always bring a book… or two.

 

14/07/2014

 

The Great Escape by We Are Scientists was just playing, I have my Zune on shuffle, the song was oddly appropriate, it has been followed by Good Day by The Dresden Dolls, it is also appropriate.

I got the contract from Olympia Publishers in the post today. It’s a good deal, well, apart from the part where I have to contribute:

Two Thousand Four Hundred Pounds

(£2,400)

At the moment it feels like I get just a little taste of what I want and then it all gets taken away from me. I just feel so tired and frustrated and this question keeps floating around my head like a bad joke:

How many more time should I get up when I should probably just stay down?

I want to be a success, then I can start a competition like Masterchef and America’s Next Top Model and those kinds of shows, but for writers. I want to make it easier for people because I don’t want them to go through this. Olympia Publishers have offered me the best deal I have ever had but the problem is I can’t even afford Oxo Cubes.

My competition will be great, with a writing course built in and will include stuff like designing your own front covers, and every week someone will get eliminated, but it would be okay because they could always reapply next year. And the winner, the winner would get an all-expenses paid publishing deal with all the help and support they need.

But I know. It’s just another fantasy. I’ll add it to the collection.

 

I did have an underhanded idea. I was going to start writing to other publishers saying in an innocent, I’m so stupid and girly way, that I've been made an offer by a publisher and that I am just writing to you because I want to consider all my options, without mention to any of the other publishers what the exact offer is of course.

But I don’t know if it’s a good idea. None of the publishing how to guides mention doing anything like that and it could mess things up for me. I know that I have to sound stupid, I have to make it seem that any offer they make me would be them taking advantage of me, not me trying to have my way with them.

But again, I don’t know if it’s a good idea and, how many more time should I get up when I should probably just stay down?

I might be able to get my job in Primark back.

I can always go back to cleaning the toilets in B and M Home Stores.

It’s important to know ones place in life, maybe this is just mine, maybe I need to start accepting it.