25. Rule 12: Saturday is a day of rest, but any work undertaken on this day will be blessed.

 

14/07/2014

 

Okay.

I just spend three hours looking at publishers in America, Olympia Publishers is probably the best deal I’m going to get and there is just no way I can do it, not without some sort of miracle.

I can’t do it.

I CAN’T DO THIS.

It’s time to give up.

I can’t do this anymore.

I’ve created this world, and I’ve trapped myself here.

I’ll find a nice frame. I’ll frame the contract from Olympia and be grateful for the little taste I got. I’ll imagine the life I could have had, if I was stronger, if I could afford help, if I wasn’t an idiot that thought I could be more than I am.